Sunday, October 08, 2006

Baby's Back








TheBattering Ram-Odot Truck




Damaged side and back window totally smashed. Frame was bent also...I felt nothing, just heard the crash! Now it's beautiful again!

Got my "baby" back after being in repair all summer...the guy is a genius who did it as he had to put the backend of another Volvo onto her. She was hit by an Odot Truck four times or more her size and I got the ticket because I was sitting at the median, though the truck driver had been no where in sight when I pulled out from the stop sign and the sun was in his eyes.
Driving her is a thrill after the Tracker I've been driving to work to save on gas. I own one single stock in Volvo, but plan to buy more. I think they are the best car on the market (we've had several).
This one I bought from an Arab who disappeared after 9/11 and his money backer found the cars from his lot scattered at different airports...so I reported him to the FBI. ---At least I got a beautiful car before he fled!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Crazy

From the time I wake there is a conversation going in my head.
I want to cry, but keep telling myself that God says to buckle up and get a grip.

How many years until death...people we know are dying and they aren't all that old. Can I ever stop the treadmill?

Bob's voice is so hyper. We talk, but not really sometimes...
Beth is so beautiful...how to connect.
Grandsons need time.
Dog needs time.
Bob keeps wanting me to do more.
Here I go again...climbing another hill on the roller coaster. I'm exhausted from worry and trying to cover all the bases. Not doing a good job of anything. Don't want to waste time, but I can't say I ever really accomplish much. In a cloud more than ever. Hanging by a thread on the fabric of life. Not happy go lucky...the clown persona is cracking.

Turn off the noise...calm and soothing...I can feel myself moving to do things but there is a numbness to life. I just want to exist, but life keeps getting in the way.