Sunday, April 30, 2006

BLUE


I was feeling blue today because I take a med. to soften my nerves (Lexapro) and have not taken it the last few nights...they were in the bedroom and I didn't want to turn on the light to hunt for them and wake my husband.

After 9-11 I was stunned by fear. At night I walked out into the barnyard where we live in the country and prayed to God, while searching the heavens and constellations for a flaw in the patterns that might be ominous.. We live close to an airport and every plane seemed a threat. Then I decided that fear was what the terrorists wanted and it dissipated.
Likewise, not that life wants us to fear, but the devil does. I trust in God to direct my life and know that worry, fear, and depression are not productive for the years I have on earth. I have literally made myself get into life. It's a choice, you know.
God Bless to all those suffering with a similar malady.


Marilyn

1 Comments:

Blogger Martha said...

Beautiful Photo M....Nice essay too! I understand what you went through more than most! (I still have guilt issues about Ian!) You've been so strong, M and are one of the few people I love and admire! I enjoy your Blog. Love, Martha

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